I am cruising into my third trimester. It hasn’t hit me yet. I mean it’s hit my thighs, butt, hips and lets not forget the boobs—they’re huge. But as far as my to-do list I’ve been preoccupied.
I did realize rolling into my third trimester it is the middle of September and the weather will be cooling off so I needed some jeans. I’ve bought three maternity items thus far but I don’t think they’ll last me to December.
I strolled into Target stopped at the swim suit section….cute maybe next year. Continued on to the shoes….I need them all. FOCUS Caroline. I find the two tiny racks of maternity clothes and start searching for jeans. The cute ones are a size 4 and nobody pregnant should be a size 4. If you are we aren’t friends. I finally find two pairs of jeans that I think may fit.
I try the first pair on and they’re surprisingly too big. They don’t look good on me. They’re baggy in all the wrong places. I quickly take them off and get a view of my body. We don’t have a full mirror at our house so very rarely have I got to see my entire body during this pregnancy. My thighs are larger and my belly is clearly popped out. I turn to the side and no stretch marks yet and I surprisingly still have my belly button. I rub my belly and embrace the change my body is making. It’s strong and carrying a beautiful healthy baby girl. I should be proud.
I try the next pair on. They’re too big as well but they’re so comfy and for a slight second I think I could grow into them in the next few months. I’m again staring at my growing body and the jeans are all wrong. They’re clearly mom jeans. I felt like I was all of a sudden living up to the “Mom” role. Outdated jeans that are too baggy and too long. It hit me hard. This image of myself. I’ve never seen it before. Outdated too baggy jeans!? What was happening???? This isn’t me. Where had that cute 26 year old girl gone who bought jeans off Nordstrom? Now she was 31 years old trying on jeans in Target and actually considering buying a pair that didn’t fit even the slightest bit correctly. That’s the moment I realized this is happenening. I am becoming a mother. I’m choosing comfort and a good price point over an expensive tailored pair. What else will I be trading out in the months to come? I purchased Girl Wash Your Face and headed home.
That night I was telling my husband how tragic the jean shopping experience was. He was comforting and said it’s okay. It won’t last long. He’s right. This is a season. If the jeans don’t fit oh well. My body is creating a human and if I have a breakdown in Target about the woman I’m becoming vs. the girl I used to be that’s okay. Take it in strides.
If you’re newly pregnant or well versed in maternity jeans and have had this experience during your pregnancy. Amen sister! I used to think I was the only one going through all these pregnancy emotions but I’m not. We’re all so similar and want to get back to those cute tailored Nordstrom jeans.